Believe me when I say I'm not afraid, I heard the devil call me by my name.

In complete and total honesty, I am happy today happened. I was pretty miserable for a the majority of the day, but for the first time in a long time I lived life. I am in a pretty vulnerable state right now and as crazy as it sounds, I love it. I am braced for the worst and hoping for the best. I'm in a boat with my closest friends and we all have different expectations for each other, but none for ourselves. My heart is in her hands now, what she does with it is her choice. The thrill is preventing me from sleep. I have said it a million times tonight, if I walk away from this alive and with one good song, job well done. 2012 is a hoax, the apocalypse is now, and I say bring it on! I have nothing left to loose...