You let me down for the last time, truth prevails, and there's nothing you can hide. And I wash my hands of you, getting on with my life.

It has been almost a month since I posted a blog entry. I do recall a few times that I attempted at writing something, but a lot of the time it just kind of felt contrived and selfish, so I opted out of ever finishing them. However, I do feel it is healthy for me to post in here, so if this is nothing more than a bunch of ramblings (which most of these posts are), at least I wrote something.

College life still doesn't seem to be working out for me. I feel like I am always being consumed by a cluster fuck of papers and exams. I am doing well on most of these, I just kind of really need a moment to breath. I am always worrying about deadlines, and I get so caught up with other things that I kind of lose sight of the point of all of this, which makes completing these tasks so much more difficult. My social life at Hofstra has taken a turn for the better though. I have been hanging out on campus a lot more and I have met some really interesting people who aren't totally brain dead, a quality that is hard to come by in this school. So if anything, at least I am having a good time.

Bellwether just bought a van. I am pretty stoked to tour this winter. If anything, I am just excited to be away from Long Island for a bit. Of course playing music with the guys is the number one most important thing, I just feel like I haven't gotten away in awhile. The past few out of state shows were great. I had a blast in MA and VA, and I can't wait to do it again.

I have recently been talking to this girl Molly. I am pleased to say that we are building the foundations of what I hope will be a healthy relationship in any sense. I still have a lot to learn about her, and I am excited to take the plunge. The fact that she is intelligent, caring, funny, modest, open minded and mature is such a breath of fresh air. And I couldn't ask for it at a better time. I don't know what will come of all of this. It is difficult being in a touring band and having a stable relationship back at home, but she seems really special. I mean she has me talking in hashtags all the time. But regardless of what happens, I am happy to say that she is in my life.

I have been a little more stable recently. I have stopped going out of my way to make myself crazy. I don't know why, but for a long time I felt the need to continuously search for information that no longer concerns me but bothered me as if it still did. I needed to move on, and it took me awhile, but I am finally done and over it. I am defiantly in a better place now.

I guess that sums it up. I get to see Hannah for a bit tomorrow. I am very stoked. I miss her like hell.