Hey Hey President.

I am not even gonna explain this post. If you can't figure it out on your own, then I won't be expecting your vote.

I have decided I am going to run for President of the United States in 2028. In case you are confused why 2028, that is the nearest election that I will legally be able to run. I would of done 2012, but for the sake of me not wanting to jump off of a bridge due to the excessive amount of assholes that I know will tell me I can't be president till I am 35, I decided I would just go with 2028 and start campaigning now.

Since I don't know what the future will bring, I will focus on political issues plaguing us now.

I will also be starting my own political party:

The Common Sense Party.

The Common Sense Party will take the best of both worlds and put them together. We will have socially liberal views and economically conservative views.

So what this means is I need a conservative running mate. I also need conservative secretaries of Treasury, Defense, Homeland Security, Urban Development, Labor, Commerce and Veteran Affairs . As well as a liberal secretaries of Justice, Interior, Agriculture, Human Services, Transportation, Energy, State and Education.

So as you can see, the party will be made up of an even mix of conservatives and liberals in order to make for well balanced decisions all based on COMMON SENSE!

Here is a brief view of my stance on most of the issues, all of which will be developed more after meeting with my cabinet. Some fiscal issues I will leave out until I consult my cabinet.

Abortion: Keep it safe and legal.

Budget and Economy: Pay athletes and reality TV stars less. Pay people who do things (teachers, cops, firemen doctors etc) more.

Civil Rights: Make Gay Marriage Legal.

Drugs: Legalize and Tax Marijuana and Hemp.

Education: Get rid of standardize tests so that way students can actually learn as opposed to prepare for a test. The effectiveness of a teacher will be weighed on a new scale in development.

Energy and Oil: Use hemp oil grown domestically for fuel. Fund projects like Solar Road Way that will create green energy.

Environment: Keep the reserves and National Parks the way they are, alive.

Gun Control: Crack down on automatic weapons. No one is hunting with M-16s.

Immigration: Pass a language bill. Make illegal immigrants become citizens.

Jobs: More jobs will be created with the legalization of Hemp and prostitution.

If you are interested in being in my cabinet, let me know. I want to have an in depth stance on all the issues fairly soon so we can start making some noise on capital hill. Also, we need an animal to represent our party, so let the ideas fly.

We Are The World...

We Are The People...

We Will Be Heard...

The Common Sense Party.

Andrew Bilder for President 2028

One day the dreamers died within us.

There is a lot I want to write about, so I am going to try my hardest to make it all coherent and cohesive.

I guess aside from the 2 recent deaths in my family, which I am not going to get into cause I wasn't terribly close with either of my now late relatives, the biggest news in my life is my new life path. I have officially decided against being a music major and am now pursuing english.

Thinking back to high school, its almost scary how dead set I was on studying music academically, and how quickly that changed when I started college. I guess most of it is the fault of the people in the Hofstra Music Department. I can't explain why, but all of them have this superiority complex. Faculty and students a like, they are all a bunch of pretentious fucks.

Lets get real for a second. You are in the Hofstra Music Department, you are by no means special. You aren't even in an actual music conservatory. You have no right to feel more important than anyone else.

Long story short, I couldn't take the egos, and I couldn't possibly afford to finish a degree in music there. Since I was never told that Music Theory 1 is only a fall course, and that no matter what your score is on the placement exam, you place in Theory 1, I'd be there an extra year and a half longer than I am supposed to be. Fuck that.

As an English Ed major, I am now 2.5 credits away from graduating on time. Well 5.5 since I just dropped the only music class I was taking this semester.

Just to put closure on this segment of my blog, to anyone who is in High School and actually reads this, don't go to college for music. Out of all of my friends, it basically only worked out well for one of them, and not to make excuses, but the kid is a prodigy.

Anyway...

I have been feeling stressed to the max lately. I think I am trying to do too many things at once. Basically, school is a nightmare. With the entire dilemma I mentioned above aside, it is just incredibly fucking difficult to manage school right now. I have to apply to redeclare as an English Ed, but first I need to do a whole bunch of bullshit for the English Department, and I have to start my application to the School of Ed. Which isn't going to be hard, I just don't have time to do it. I have to finish 20 hours of observation at the High School, which is actually a lot of fun, but I am observing gym, so I can't even get work done while I observe.

And on top of all of this, Bellwether is being pushed to the limit.

Now I am stoked beyond belief that BW is doing so many great things at the same time, I am in no way complaining about that. It's just so much to do on top of school.

So I have been pulling my hair out a little bit.

Finally,

Things have been getting better with Gina. We worked through a really tough time together, and I have to say that it really is a testament to our feelings for each other. I am willing to admit that I was responsible for a good portion of what happened to us. This blog is a perfect example of that. Similar to using FB statuses to convey emotions, I used this to vent them. Which helped for awhile. But the fact of the matter is, there is no substitute for actually talking problems out. I also understand now that this blog made some aspects of our relationship public that shouldn't have been, and understandably that made her upset and contributed to the problem.

So I am going to put my best for forward and try to use this blog as less of a crutch when it comes to relationship nonsense. I can't promise that some won't slip in, but at least I know I am going to make an effort to ween myself off of this.

Its kinda sad. We are all so disconnected through connection. Everyone is always somewhere else, even when they are right in front of you. Thats the beauty and horror of the internet and cell phones...

till next time...

What ever were you thinking?

I think I may have typed my last post prematurely like I said I might.

I realized that I do rely on my facebook for a million other things and I am gonna take Desmonds advice and put less emphasis on the shit that drives me nuts. So I guess you will be seeing me around a little longer facebook.

A bit off topic.

Unnamed person from my last post whom I have an obvious distaste for. I know you read this. Game over man. I don't care how you feel about me, and my feelings for you probably wont change, but I am no longer gonna let Gina take heat from you because you have a problem with the things that I say here. I also will not give you the satisfaction of being an important enough aspect of my life for me to take time out of my day to write about you. If you want to be civil, fine, I have no problem extending the peace pipe, but you would be a damn fool to think that I wouldn't find out about you trying to play me and not put an end to it. I'm done man.

IT'S OVER!

This time we're gonna say those words, and cut the ropes that are wrapped around our necks.

Before I get to the real part of this post, I just want to say how nice it is to be back from tumblr.

Now for what I am really typing this for.

I may be writing this a bit prematurely, but I think it is necessary for me to post this as soon as possible, so the few people who care enough to actually read this know, and so I don't bitch out when the time comes to follow through with what I am typing.

I will be deleting my facebook sometime between now and Friday morning.

It has come to my attention that aside from sucking a huge chunk of my life away from doing other things, it has had this hold on my real life and it even dictates actions I make in reality.

I am choosing my relationship with Gina as an example.

Looking back on our relationship, I can pinpoint a few political moves I made in our relationship on facebook based on facebook. And I am sure everyone is guilty of doing something like this. If you aren't, good for you. But there has been times I had tried to tiptoe around a problem or a situation by leaving a status up for her to see that would indicate I was upset with her or to get a rise out of her because something she did online irritated me. I know now that this has a huge role in the problems we are having now. Because instead of being direct with her, and letting her know that something was wrong and we needed to work it out, I threw up a war flag. That war flag of course would attract many other people who would all "like" or comment on my status, rallying behind my cause, and none of them really knew they were doing it. So now I have taken a problem that should have been settled in private, made it public, and assembled a group of people to get my back like a child who is about to fight someone in a school yard.

I know now that is not really good relationship etiquette.

Aside from that, there were plenty of other things about having a relationship on facebook that made having a relationship in reality a lot harder, such as the "relationship status".

Until recently, Gina did not have me displayed on her profile as "in a relationship" with me. For an incredibly long time this bothered me and I didn't say anything about it, because to me facebook wasn't a big deal. But the reality is that facebook IS a HUGE deal. If you put something on facebook, people assume it to be true. It doesn't matter what is up there, people expect you to be honest on facebook. So to me, it was like she was trying to hide me from her friends and family. And of course my brain took that idea and ran with it. "What if I'm not up there cause she has another boyfriend, or she wants to hook up with other people? "What if she is ashamed of me?" and a million other terrible ideas that your brain produces when you are not sure of someone's motives.

The fact that something as minute as that had such a strong mental and emotional hold on me really makes me upset. And what is more upsetting is that I willingly subjected myself to it and did nothing to stop it.

The last major role facebook played in my relationship is probably exclusive to me, maybe not, but probably. Because there can't be as many completely immature people in the world like the one I am about to describe.

Since I am going to be the bigger man, I will just refer to this person in a plethora of different degrading names.

So Gina has this friend, who is a total fucking dildo. I mean it, he is the definition of a bag of dicks. For some reason, he felt it was appropriate to call her things like "Cunt" "Slut" "Whore" and a million other things that most woman I know despite being called, on her facebook wall. Since I tried as hard as a could to not be the over protective boyfriend, I didn't say anything. But the truth is seeing this waste of life publicly humiliate my girlfriend on the internet made my blood boil. And I swear, if I ever see him in reality, I will publicly humiliate him to the point where he is going to want to change countries.

I digress.

In a political move, to make it appear that I was fine with Gina having shitty friends, I never said anything, and it killed me. Every time she told me she was going somewhere with him I would get furious, but I kept my mouth shut. And when he changed his profile picture to one of Gina and him on Valentines Day, it made me realize that cockface was playing a political game as well. He was intentionally trying to get under my skin, and because of facebook, it worked.

And all of these things together put a very real, very big, strain on my relationship with Gina.

I love this girl with all my heart, and it sickens me that I let facebook dictate how I would treat her, when I would tell her how I actually feel, how I feel about her and her friends, and how I felt about our relationship.

My relationship with Gina aside, there are other examples that are not relationship related, but I am not going to write any of them on here, cause if you read to this point, you are probably already pissed with me for going on this long a rant.

I assume that this will be like kicking any other addiction, so any support will be greatly appreciated.

So with all of that said, this is my resignation from facebook. I will be on for another 72 hours at the most. And I will probably post this a bunch of times on there, so brace yourselves.

P.S.

I wont be deleting Twitter.

P.P.S

...Yea thats it, I wont be deleting my Twitter.