I don’t think I wanna live here dying all alone...

Contrary to my last blog, summer has yet to yield any real greatness with the exception of a few parties and shows. I don't know if we have grown apart or if we are just getting older, but I feel that the fire in most of my friends has died. I am aware its only May and there is still all of summer, but last year this time, we were up till 5 AM just talking and having a good time. Now everyone goes in at 12 despite the fact that school is over. Yea some of my friends have work and responsibilities, its just a little lame, or at least I think so.

I guess I am a little stressed and I am desperately looking to relive the care free days of last summer. Lately I have been up to my neck in shit for the band, the label Mark and I are starting, the shows Danny and I are booking. And now I have just taken on the responsibility of promoting for an organization called Choose Responsibility, which is aiming to lower the drinking age to 18. All of these things are great and exciting, they just all give me a huge headache when they all need to get done at once.

What is killing me more than ever is the fact that I don't see Gina as much as I would like to. Recently our schedules have just been in constant conflicts. And it all really sucks, because now my psyche is in constant conflict.

I used to tell myself that I would never truly fall in love due to the fact that I want to live a tour type life style and because of that I would not have the time for a full time partner. But I am in love with Gina, and my whole perception of my life has been flipped around.

I guess I can only hope that things will get more exciting and that I will be taken out of this funk.

Totally off topic but I fell in love with this quote tonight!

"Well, it's a crazy fucked up world and we're all just floating along waiting for someone who can walk on water, man."- Michael A. Goorjian as Heroine Bob in SLC Punk