Monday she left home for New York City, by Friday she was found but torn apart.

Last night was pretty rough. I met up with my good ol' friend Nostalgia. For some reason I have this fixed notion that the past was considerably better than the present.

I will admit, last night I was... "silly"... While walking home from the party where all my actual "ol' friends" were, I stopped at the my elementary school bus stop. Granted, this bus stop is across the street from my house. I am legitimately looking at it from my bedroom window. But for some reason standing on it just let in a flood of memories that started from my first day of kindergarden and ended on my last day of high school.

In retrospect, the individual phases of my life, would hate each other, and that kind of bothers me a little. I understand that people change, and I do in fact fit into that category, but I did not realize to what extent people change. I hope that, for many reasons, I change at least once more. I hope that in time I grow out of the phase I am in now because present day me is a complete train wreck. A testament to this is that I am completely serious about myself being a total mess, and have yet to take control of myself and change it. It's not even that I don't know how to do it, I am just refusing to do it. I guess this is just college. Just like me in high school was just high school.

Completely unrelated, but the music video finally came out, so if you haven't seen it yet, its here!

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